Mission Impossible, All Alone This Round

Busy, Busy, Busy!!!

Travelling & flying month AGAIN … Sigh!!! This round predicted at least 8 flights within a month’s time. It’s neither for work nor for a holiday, it's just how we normally use to travel for the pass year and that’s very tiring!! Sometimes I get tired of asking myself where would I be tomorrow too but as long as we could stay together as a family, I think it's all worth it :)

And also, I JUST realised that I will be flying alone with Angel in just a few day’s time!! And yes, 'Alone = Me + Angel only'!! Oh dear ……. She has not been a NORMAL easy baby since birth and normally when we travel on air, me, hubby and my mom will take turns handling her ‘endless crying’ and ‘back arching’ which at the end of the day, all of us was totally drained out. Not only when she was on the aeroplane, the same thing happens whenever we go out too where she will fuss, throwing tantrums, crying, kicking and screaming her lungs out most of the time just because she wants to do things her way, her dangerous and forbidden way and she mean it!! She won’t tolerant when we advise her nicely, coax her with toys, distract her attention with food, etc …. when she wants to do it, she MUST get it NOW and she is a real stubborn when it comes to things that she wants and want them to be done!!! So normally, when you heard that a baby (toddler now) is screaming and crying in the airport or on the plane for no reason, yup, you can say ‘Hi’ to us :P Normally our infamous Angel boarding the plane will suddenly become all ‘well known’ after the plane landed at our destination, people or tourists will start come to say ‘Hi’ to the cry baby and tell her “You have not been a good girl today, aren’t you?” LoL But what they didn’t know is that it happens almost every day in our life when we were out LoL.

If we don’t let her do it her way, she will cry out fierce and loud throwing tantrums on the spot, but if we give in and let her do as she wished but when it’s time to make a move, she will cry even louder, kick and shout even ferociously! Nope, we have tried but she just doesn’t understand or won’t take 5 minutes more / next time / we will do that again later, etc. Sometimes distracting her attention MIGHT work but most of the times, she is pretty determine on what she wants. So it’s really a loss-loss situation for us. Even my mom who is an expereince granpma said that she has never felt so ‘challenging’ handling a young kid before. Same saying came out from 2 of Angel’s previous nanny, who were happily waving ‘bye-bye’ to her after a good 1 month of service (coz can’t cope with Angel around) and another nanny even stop taking care of her after her 1st day LoL Phone calls is what I normally would received in every few days time telling me to bring my baby for a check up coz she is constantly crying - seek for attention and always wanted to get what she wants.

“With her around, I can hardly cook, I can hardly look after the other kid or even go to the toilet! I am afraid that you have to find somebody else, I am so sorry …..”

Yes, that’s the actual sentences coming out from Angel’s ex-nannies!! I used to left Angel with my PIL twice to get some errands done, but phone calls will normally rings in less then half an hour’s time asking me to the rescue coz they can’t cope LoL …… talking about ‘high-maintenance toddler’?? I have one at home! :) Only my parents can manage her so far but they were living at another state! So normally Angel would tag along wherever we go, and there will be at least one scene that Angel would be carried by hubby the way shown on the very first picture below when we go out while she cries, kicks and arches in retaliation. Only Hubby have the strength to deal with her crankiness but told me he was ‘exhausted’ after 5 minutes of exercising his arm muscles with a struggling kid crying and screaming her lungs out in his care. Or else, we won’t be getting anything done or going no where for the entire day.

So in few days time, I will be in that challenging situation, ALL ALONE for the very first time, carrying Angel’s heavy diapers bag and our important documents with Angel’s toys, drinking water, milk powder, nappies, solid etc. I will be leaving Angel’s stroller behind to coz I have no extra hands for that!! To make things worst, I need to endure the entire process from waiting in airport for 2 hours before the flights, checking in, boarding, on plane, landing and then check out with an extremely heavy luggage and a fussing baby in tow ALL ALONE in the airport for FEW HOURS all by myself, AND AGAIN check in again, boarding again, on plane again then finally check out!!!! That is a lengthy 11 HOURS of ‘marathon’ in total before I could see my rescuer at the finishing point!!!! Oh dear …. I really do not know or cannot imagine how I am going to handle that! Just by thinking of the entire processes making me feel so ‘hopeless’ + cold feet + cold sweat pouring down but I have no choice this time :( I have been accomplishing 2 years of MISSION IMPOSSIBLE all alone and I know I will have to do this for once sooner or later unfortunately. I just hope that my cutie pie Angel would ‘not be her old self’ that day!!! *praying*

Like what the song sings ………………. I WILL SURVIVE !!!!!!


P/s: My post probably will be slowing down depends on the internet connection and my schedule so please forgive me if I didn’t post as much / didn’t reply your comments or visit your blog in time ya :) However, keep the message / comments coming in and I be back soon :)